i figure i really am a sick kid? i need someone or something to kick me at the butt to update this bloody blog. and recently has it always been the same force over and over again? whoever or whatever should oughta know ya? haha..
as u can see.. my hideous left hand. it's getting better if you guys are asking/being concerned/worried/just being freaking annoying me with ur numerous dirty qns (you dirty ones know what i'm saying). haha. perhaps i'm being cynical around here particularly for this post, it's the environment that i'm in. anyways i didnt take a photo of it when the wound is open cos i didnt think it was a good idea to snap a photo at the hospital, and other then the time at the hospital, my wound is all wrapped up. so no disturbing pix. sorry for some thou. haha
presenting the description of the life of a irrational kid who ran down a slope and slipped and cut his palm and its wound requiring 5 freaking stitches to heal the bloody wound and it still got infected despite the docs poking an injection into the wound to numb the specific area to lift the skin at the side to wash and disnfect the wound with saline solution and many more.
in total from the day that i've fell. i have gotten 4 MCS in total.
1st MC: 7 days
2nd MC: 3 days
3rd MC: 5 days . . . . .
. . . . . 4th and last MC:
14 days or 2 weeks
7+3+5+14=29 days
CONCULSION = OOC* (Out of Course)
*BTW one needs to get 7days and above to be awarded ooc.
oh man! i'm speechless. let me say sorry first! especially to Yonghui, i know i'm that bugger who pushed u not to ooc during the 1st 2 weeks of ASLC but my luck ran out and fell for that slope till OOC. i'm sorry dude! :P
back to my life, with my left palm in that wrapped up condition with 5 stitches, the nurse told me that i can only carry things that weigh as much as a magazine with my left hand and to keep it dry. as i naturally will sweat a lot esp since my hand is all wrapped up, i have to watch where my hand goes all the time. which means i cant exercise, run, changing clothes itself is a chore during the first week or so. which means suddenly i'm stuck with a limit of things to do since i have to stay at home most of the time or risk the wound opening and prolonging the healing process. seriously i'm so going to need some time to get used to going back to camp and staying there since i've quite an amount of freedom right now.
alright. shall update something more recent. i've been preparing my A'level GP paper that i'm retaking next monday which is a day b4 my MC ends. dunno if one should say i lucked out for taiwan, but not for GP. been studying and reading notes borrowed from jacelyn and practising on prelim papers.
sitting on my bed with my table filled with notes really bring back fond memories of a year ago when i was taking my 1st a'lv. thought i was resigned to be a complete academic idiot for the whole 2 years in NS but for the past one month, i had the time to think, breathe, eat and live like a nerd. haha.
simple things like reading "current" newspapers (ST and TNP) when i wake up and not wait for some ppl with good will to pass us the beat up TNP which is days ago.
or even bathing as when as i like knowing that my schedule is all in control, and not dashing to finish it and worrying about having more things to do later in camp.
i know some other peeps would surely mention about all the watch tv and wake up as and when i like, of cos i did that. but seriously it is the simple things that i used to take for granted that shines thru the whole experience of being a stay-at-home soldier for this month.
this past whole month (october) is not an easy one for me, mentally especially. i let people who have been sleeping in the same bunk with me for about 4 months down. i took some time to acknowledge the fact that my whole taiwan is blown and right now my bunkmates are at some remote place of taiwan and i'm sleeping at home.
on the bright side, i met up with some of my friends ie.huifen & khaymar, yonghui, dustin, joel, yanxi, jieming, bryan and etc. shed some light on my plight and shared some crap and laughs. it was good.
i get to be around my family daily. have a meal with them.
sometimes it is this good opportunity that this mc have deprived me of and given me many others that is giving me all the dilemmas that i've faced now and then.
ultimately right now, i've let go of all this thoughts and just go with the flow. life of an ooc is not what i want, but it makes the rank that i'm going to get eventually more wothwhile and meaningful. i have a story to tell ppl now. that i fell and found out about all these blessings. i thank you.
Thursday, October 16, 2008
「 sunset on 5:01 PM 」
i figure despite practically "half handicapped"(i had 5 stitches done to my left palm!), i should record the on-goings of recent events esp since i was just given another 3 day mc on top of my previous 7 days of mc. anyways this post is going to take some time for me to type as i'm operating on a single palm, crap!
seriously, this post could easily descend into a depressing one yet i'm trying to avoid taking that route yea?
to start off, the reason of me taking 10 days of mc is basically due to the 5 stitches i got after i slipped and fell onto a gravel road when descending a slope during training. it was stupid to charge down a steep slope when carrying heavy load ya? so unfortunately in some ways i just got a deep cut or laceration on my left palm which is 5 cm long and bleeding quite badly. surprisingly i was not fully aware of the depth of the cut and the pain was rather minimal. needlessly to say i got sent to the hospital and spent the whole afternoon stitching it up. it sucked. the end.
i got 7 days of mc right way from the doc at NUH in other words i managed to skip one of the major exercise which was going to happen a week later then. and currently the wound is still leaving a slight gap after period of 7 days which does not leave me optimistic about me being able to go for the taiwan trip next sat. anyways that's really beyond my control and i shall not harp on it. met up with joel ytd, we agreed upon "Shit Happens!" and that's that! haha. thanks joel. all the best either to mp or signals for u. ultimately for ur A's!
this is an old post and i thought i should post it out. during then i believe i had tons more to type but fell asleep or something so double post for today. yay!
Friday, August 29, 2008
「 sunset on 8:17 PM 」
seriously i was surprisingly calm when the news announced to me that i was to be posted to A after completion of B. others cried, many literally broke down, i gave a tired yet lame smile.
2 weeks into the course, i had my ups and downs, both of equal portions.
settled down? maybe.
sense of belonging? still searching.
happiness? dun even want to think about it, just thinking of passing the day one by the other.
perhaps it's tiring lying to others that things would be better at A as time passes whenever i see any of my buddies looking down. however what other choices do i have?
haha. this is not a mourning session or what. or hatred towards any of my previous buddies posted to units more suitable for them.
constantly do i try to be positive, think positive and breathe positive air. but the constant thought of being in this for the rest of my 2 years truly does not place my mental state in heavens high.
looking forward to passing that gate lingers in my mind now and then. i hate that. i know i should cherish the chance to learn and experience new skills. be a better person. but i'm in a turmoil now and then. and i doubt that is healthy to my mental state. challenge is good. but too much of a good thing is deemed good as well? luck is not really on my side for the past few years. my results for A's? how do i even credit it?
and now this.
complaining isn't the key to the problem. i know. consoling myself is more of avoiding it. i know. lying to myself is somehow worse eh? i think so..
i hope i am not making any grave mistakes in pressing myself in completing this course.
Thursday, June 12, 2008
「 sunset on 12:18 AM 」
POP (Passing Out Parade)
Somehow it wasn't as solemn an event as i had expected. Sure, the march past, speech given by MP and throwing of jockey caps (I threw mine and grabbed someone else's cos i cant find mine and it stinked, literally.) signified the transition from a RECRUIT to a PRIVATE. Somehow everyone was filled with joy and thrill about the whole graduation from BMT but was i the only one sad about leaving the place and ultimately the people whom i spent my 10 weeks there?
Achievements attained there:
IPPT My results stinked
BTP My shooting sucked. Period.
SIT Test For once i admit the afternoon heat's a killer and i can just faint if i want to Field Camp 6 days of dirt and camo paint on your face and hands waking up everyday with shit in ur eyes and unable to clean it properly sitting on mud and grass patches which previously u never would want to go near to experience shitting after holding it for days of field rations, gigantic flies landing on it
24km Route March Abrasions on inner thighs causing one to walk as if one was kenna.. but overall, there was a sense of accomplishment
However, most importantly.. it is not all these that matter most to me.
It is simply...
LEOPARD COMPANY
PLATOON3
SECTION3
in that order alright?
the "brothers" i've met during my BMT days they are not perfect human beings with no flaws however it is those imperfections and flaws that bond all of us together we are all different, but living under the same roof.
it was definitely not easy.
but it was one of my greatest time of my life. i met my buddies/brothers/mates/whatever.
L3305
All the best to all. Hope we maintain in contact.
Pictures taken during POP
Below are "much better" quality pictures taken by Xin Li whom is in my platoon. Thanks for letting me post this out. His blog link is in my link section.
Sunday, May 18, 2008
「 sunset on 9:20 PM 」
haha. somehow those who tag at my board knows that more often than not, i'm a freaking irritating bastard that need you guys to push and urge me repeatedly to update my blog with my more-than-fantastic blog posts.
well, like they said, good things come to those who wait.
btw, this post is going to sound random to many as i just jolt down whatever that comes up in my freakingly tiny brain. yup!
and at last, i present you my post on may18 which is pretty much after my army field camp. 6 days of crawling in the mud, rain, forest and god-knows-whatelse and my face left unwashed during that period. surprisingly i looked normal after that, my face was left spared by mother nature. (i know the previous statement is a potential target for sarcasm, but anyways..)
before blogging, i pondered upon posting pix too. but noticed i didn't have many latest pix to update my blog with, only those which is already on junyong's blog. and some other embarrassing ones.
anyways this post is just mainly to show the outside world that i'm pretty much still alive despite having to serve my beginning period of army as a chao recruit. sergeants sucks unless you're one yourself. biased? yeah right.
okay. alright.
i'm pretty much done scribbling.
for now.
booking in tmr night. gonna need the rest of time to sob and so called recover yeah?
Today i've just bought the book entitled "Running the FULL distance, Thaddeus Cheong" written by Belinda Wee who is the aunt of Thaddeus Cheong.
Just for those who have no idea who Thaddeus is, he's the National triathlete who represented Singapore and completed the '07 SEA Games triathlon time trial with his personal best time of 2:09. But upon finishing that particular, no one expected it to be his last.. (He just collapsed and died within a short period of time.)
It was broadcast in the news and splashed all over the local newspapers as well. Sad. Tragic.
I've yet to read the book but the emphasis of this post is not really on the content of the book but more on what my cousin said when i bought this book.
"Why do you want to buy this book for?" enquired my puzzled cousin.
YES! A simple question and that left me stumbled for words. I paused and pondered.
Curious? Anxious to read more?
Nah, those are pretty superficial answers as i thought to myself. There has to be more in-depth reasons to my purchase of this particular book. Furthermore, this is a book written by a local writer and we singaporeans have this strange sort of stigma attached to anything produced or made locally. Sorry if the previous comment offended some peeps but through personal experiences it appears so. But anyways to clarify that I don't really shun locally produced books, I own the whole series of books written by Neil Humphreys who wrote about his experiences in Singapore though he's a British or foreigner. Hence whether one consider his books as local books depends on you then.
Back to answering that question, pesky one if I may add since I'm once again thinking a lot into a question.
Envious i guess? Since he's only 17 but Thaddeus is a national athlete and belongs to Raffles family, studying in RI, RJC you see.
One starts to question the motto of "Carpe Diem" and how much have you youself accomplished so far in life.
I'm 19 and so? This is especially demoralizing when you are completing a form that requires one to state his accomplishments.
I be honest with ya. I've nothing much to boast about. I can talk? I can study and score? I can do committee work?
How exactly are all those above something to be helpful in one's testimonial etc? Even if they're considered to be helpful labels, aren't everyone pretty much have these qualities within them? In addition, aren't they many more people out there better than you?
A symptom of Inferiority complex? A sense of low Self-esteem?
Perhaps it's the word National in the term National Athlete that scares me? I'm considered as an athlete at some point of my life as well but definitely not a National player. Just a member. Haha. That's funny. I think.
Anyways to sum it up, maybe for just a moment I want to feel how's it like to be that someone. So in the end my answer to him was..
"I guess by reading someone else's biography, I get to experience that person's life and know how it is different from my own."
He stared at me strangely as if I've hit him for no reason and looked away. Wow..
It's April 06 right now. 1.43 am in the morning. 3 more days till my enlistment to the NS.
As April 09 edges closer, I start to get more intensed about the whole issue as I come to grasp the reality of it.
I'm happy that I had a opportunity to teach at Nanhua Primary School, surrounded by wonderful students and helpful yet quirky teachers and staff. It was an engaging and refreshing experience that is definitely one of the more memorable experiences in my life.
To be able to step into the shoes of a teacher and look into things from a different perspective.
The fun. Arriving late for lesson and not get scolded. Cutting queue when lining up for food. The chance to scold and flare up at students. (Definitely not a good thing to do regularly) Calling my ex-teachers by their names instead of Mr or Mrs X etc. And my PERSONAL favourite.. Tell students to tuck in their shirts.
The not-so-fun. Marking of work and especially trashy ones. Entertaining nonsense in class. ie. Mr Tee! SHIRT! Mr Cup-of-TEA! Mr Tee! He hit me! Failure to control troublesome students and they end up screwing your life up.
Haha. If I was a student then and not a teacher, I'll definitely laugh at most of the incidents instead of trying to look and be stern and strict.
Now that I've ended my time as a relief teacher (mostly as a PE teacher), I feel that i should give some ending credits to some people.
Mrs Sandy Tay I couldn't have been a relief teacher here and mostly as a PE teach since I mostly cover your lessons. I used to dislike you as my teacher in the past, but now I understand the motives of your actions much better.
Mr Dylan Chua You're truly an inspiration to many and I definitely admire your will and perseverance in providing the best for your students.
Mr Kenny Chua Brillant teacher and an even better friend. I enjoy the time we spend talking in the staffroom with Geewong and Lew Lao Shi plus what's her name? I would surely grab the opportunity to teach after my NS just to experience all this all over again.
Other Staff Geewong, Lew Fook Seng aka Lew Laoshi, what's her name? Grace? for entertainment in the staffroom. Classes that I've taught I really enjoyed myself in teaching you guys though some of you gave me heaps of trouble but at the same time you brought me joy too. I thank you.
I hope this post aint sounding too serious because it was truly not my intention of doing so. =)
